Mary and I have been working for almost 9 years. She told me today that her first appointment with me was in December of 1999. I felt my ego jump in and wonder, why so long? I then pushed my ego aside and learned that healing is not attached to time. Healing takes place when we are healthy in our thoughts, our words and our deeds. In simpler terms, healing takes place when we are healthy enough to allow our “self” to heal.
When I met Mary, she was very ill. Both her immune and energy systems were drained. She could no longer function. Her body had enough. As I watched Mary begin to heal, I saw an old pattern that Mary had not been able to connect to. She was compulsive. According to the dictionary compulsive means: “Somebody whose actions are driven by a usually irrational psychological force.”
Mary was driven; cooking was her drive. She cooked all day to fill a freezer that could never be full enough. When she shopped at the store, she bought six of this and five of that. She could never buy enough. Finally I asked her, who are you cooking for? In reality there was only her and her husband at home. She was taken aback by that question. She didn’t really have an answer.
When she realized her compulsion with cooking, she refocused her energy into making crafts. She loved to create. However, once she began she could not stop. She worked day and night; she could not make enough. Her room was so full of crafts of all shapes and sizes that she had to have a craft show.
We used the flower essence Vervain to help Mary begin to heal her compulsive behaviors. As we worked her Vervain issue, anger began to reveal itself in Mary’s body. Her intestines spoke loud and clear asking her to recognize her impatient personality. The flower essence “Impatiens” helped to slow her down so she could begin to see differently.
Next her resentment personality was free to show itself and sinus issues emerged. Chicory and Willow were introduced into her program.
As time went on, I listened to Mary’s resentment voice. I realized that Mary was incapable of hearing her own resentment because resentment had be-come her. I worked each layer to help Mary hear the language she was speaking; it was a language attached to resentment. And one day Mary was able to hear the resentment she was holding in her self. Now she could begin to heal it.
As her resentments healed, her body turned itself to the language of the bladder which holds disappointments. Mary had be-come a disappointment; she felt she could never do enough and her life was reflecting her belief. And so we worked on Mary’s bladder and for the past many layers, Mary was deep into her disappointment issues. She urinated constantly, keeping her awake at night. Cantharis and Nat Mur became her constant companions, and finally on her last layer, Impatiens was reintroduced which signaled to me that anger was an underlying factor in all these disappointments.
On that same layer, she was back to age 6. Again I asked, “What does age 6 mean to you?” Mary and I had been back to age 6 many times in the past; this time was different. In a moment, Mary remembered. She remembered a very traumatic event in first grade. She had wet her self. And instead of that small beautiful child being loved and nurtured through that experience, the teacher traumatized and punished her in front of her classmates.
That one experience, if handled differently, could have helped Mary come to a place of accepting her self; instead that one experience traumatized her to the point of such pain and embarrassment that she chose to hide from her self. Her body in return has been hiding that trauma all these years through compulsion, impatience, resentment and disappointment.
After our 9 years of working together, Mary has done a lot of healing. She was now healthy enough to heal her traumatic memory cell. She no longer had to hide from her self. Mary learned to love her self.
When I saw Mary today, she no longer needed Cantharis. So I had to ask, “How is your bladder issue?” Mary smiled and was proud to announce that it no longer had an effect on her. Her bladder was behaving just fine.
Today, Mary’s focus is no longer on cooking or crafts. She gave both of those compulsions up a while ago. Instead she has found gardening, not through compulsion but through love. Mary does not need to be compulsive to run from her pain because she has now healed her pain. Mary’s garden is filled with love. And from what I am told it has be-come a Garden of Eden which according to the dictionary is: “any place seen as being perfect, highly pleasing, or happy”. Mary’s garden is a reflection of Mary her self.
- Linda Wojcik, Nutritional Kinesiologist and Spiritual Intuitive, is available for personal consultations at her offices in Danielson and N Stonington Ct or by phone. Half hour appointments are $30.00
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Thursday, May 7, 2009
When God Speaks...
As a 5th chakra Beech personality, I love a great adventure. Buy me a ticket and I’ll go anywhere. So it came as no surprise when I found myself headed to hike the Inca Trail for 4 days to the lost city of Machu Picchu. It had always been on my dream list. I was living my dream.When first asked to join in this adventure, I was not sure how I could afford it; however, money would not deter me. My healing experiences taught me to focus my energy on my desires instead of my fears. I clearly spoke, “I’m going!” And one day the money magically appeared before me. I asked, the universe provided and I graciously accepted
Ten women all over 50 and from all different backgrounds and beliefs set out together for the adventure of a lifetime. On the way to the airport, the group granted me a moment to set forth our intentions for the journey. It was simple: “Grant us a journey filled with joy, love and laughter; and allow us to follow divine guidance along the way.” And so it was done.
As we boarded the plane to Newark, I came upon my seat in the back of the airplane, a far distance from the rest of my group. I double checked my boarding pass as my seat was already occupied. “Excuse me, is this your seat?” I inquired. In a shy sort of way, he answered me with a simple no and nothing more.
I noticed a young lady sitting to his side and asked, “Is that your daughter?” And again his answer was a simple yes.
“Then you should sit with your daughter. I can sit in your seat. Where is it?”
He pointed to a center seat one row back, and although I preferred my aisle seat to his, I thought it a small price to pay to allow a dad to be with his daughter.
As I sat down, I realized the aisle seat next to me was still empty. I remembered that the stewardess told us the plane was sold out. Time passed and still the seat remained empty. I might get my aisle seat yet. However, just before the doors of the plane closed, a single heavy set gentleman came quickly down the aisle and plopped himself next to me.
He was quite talkative and very entertaining. I learned a lot about him during our 50 minute ride. He was on his way home from Florida to Newark. Originally he had a first class seat on another flight; however, he had a very long lay over and decided to go standby on this flight to try and get home four hours earlier. So here he was, traveling from Florida to Newark by way of Boston.
I also learned that he traveled a lot on business and was a wealth of travel information. Eventually he got to me and where I was going. I proudly answered, “I’m going to Peru to hike the Inca trail.”
“That’s a long trip,” was his reply. “What seats do you have?”
Taken aback by the question, I had to admit I had no idea. He waited patiently while I dug into my bags for my boarding passes. He quickly informed me that I had bad seats and before I knew what was happening, he had his blackberry out scanning for available exit seats on my next flight. “I can get you a much better seat by an exit window. It will give you a lot more leg room and because it’s in the middle of the plane, your seat will still recline.”
It sounded good to me, and with the click of a mouse, my seat was upgraded, maybe not quite as good as first class (okay, so nowhere near first class), but a big improvement none the less.
By now we were getting ready to land. As we shuffled for our carry on bags, the gentleman with his young daughter turned to me and said, “Here, I want to buy you lunch. I appreciate you giving up your seat so I could sit with my daughter.”
Again I was taken aback and quickly told him it was not necessary. He insisted and I took the $20.00.
God speaks to us in mysterious ways. And in that moment, I knew God had spoken to me not once but twice and my trip was barely off the ground! I graciously accepted my gifts and knew that I was being divinely guided. With a sense of knowing and a smile on my face, I consciously decided to allow this journey to unfold. All I had to do from here-on-end was love each step that was laid out before me. And so my journey began…
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Being Loved and Feeling Love – Is it the same energy?
Is being loved different from feeling love? I am learning to heal my own heart, and through this experience, I came to the understanding that being loved and feeling love are two very different situations.
As I healed my inner child, I remembered that my dad was rarely home. I barely knew who he was. And yet I understood that it was Dad that provided the resources for our home, food and clothing. I knew I was being loved by his actions to provide us with the things that made us feel secure as a family. But is feeling secure the same as feeling love?
Dad was also the disciplinarian. So when he was home, he was often judging or criticizing us for who he thought we should be. I was taught by my dad that being loved was attached to judgments and criticisms. Hence, I used this same pattern with my own children. I used judgment and criticism to replace love. I have since learned and understand that judgment and criticisms are not of the same essence as love. Judgment and criticisms are anger; and anger is not love.
My mom on the other hand, was a gentle, nurturing person. She did not work when we were younger, choosing instead to stay home and take care of her 5 children. Being loved by Mom was cooking dinner and serving after school snacks. Because my dad was rarely home, her time was consumed in assuring there was food on the table and clean clothes to wear. There was little time for anything else. Mom took care of us to show her love, but were we feeling love?
Being loved is an action. It is something you can put your finger on and say, Mom did this or dad did that. Feeling love is an energy. It is the true essence of who we are. There is nothing attached to it. Love just is.
How can we feel love? In order to feel love, the heart must be opened to receive. At some point in our lives, most of us have chosen to shut our heart for fear of being hurt or because we no longer trust outwardly. We use pain and torment to replace the feeling of love. Why would we do that? Because we are feeling beings, and feeling pain and torment is better than feeling nothing at all.
Closing our hearts is a form of protection. What are we protecting ourselves from? We are protecting our "self" from the negative aspect of our self.
Our bodies are storage tanks for our emotions; and in the moment we choose fear over love, our energy becomes encased in negativity from learned behaviors. This fear, dependent upon our experiences, can be transformed into anger, guilt, intolerance, anxiety, etc. Now this energy must be stored waiting for us to make a different choice; the choice to feel love. As long as we choose to attach to the negative aspect of our “self, we will attract negativity into our lives. Hence, close the heart to protect the "self" from what we attract.
Let me see if I can explain it in a simpler way:
I know when a person is angry. They don’t have to say or do anything. I can feel their anger. It is emitted outwardly as energy and I am accountable for attracting it to me. Why am I accountable? I am accountable to the same energy that I see in that person. That person becomes my mirror; what I see in them, I am being asked to change in me.
This person directs this energy towards me because “like attracts like”. When someone decides to express their anger (so they don’t self destruct), the heart opens to release it outwardly. It is energy in the form of anger being expressed through the heart, and they have attracted a person who stores this same energy within themselves to express their anger to.
Why is anger expressed through the heart? Because anger is an emotion and all emotion is expressed through the heart. The heart is our emotional chakra. Anger is not stored in the heart; it is expressed through the heart.
Why do we choose to express anger? It is in that moment of anger expressed that a person is energetically asking for help. And they have picked you to help them. It’s a game and, “tag, you’re it!” Why you? Because you store the same anger within yourself, so you now have a greater understanding of that person’s feelings and needs.
We have been taught through experiences that when someone shows anger towards us, we reciprocate with anger. This mentality will never create peace for anyone. However, it is in this moment of recognizing their anger that we have the ability to choose differently. We can make a different choice! Instead of being angry back at that person, we can now choose to feel love towards them.
It is that single moment when their heart is opened (even if it is only to emit anger) that we have an opportunity to consciously send love back to them. This is not an easy feat, for as we have all experienced, our anger body wants to play that anger game.
How do we send love back to an angry person? By opening our own heart because it is through the heart that we can express love.
And how do we open our own heart? Through forgiveness. We forgive by the simple words, “I am sorry you are angry.” And in that moment of forgiveness, their heart will heal that anger because they have felt your love. And in that very same moment, you will feel their love in return. There is nothing more beautiful than the moment we learn to share the feeling of love.
How does the heart do this? It is through the act of forgiveness that the heart has the power to transform anger back into love, which is the true essence of each being. Now that person can choose to feel love instead of anger. You have taught them differently. What a gift you have shared.
That moment of forgiveness is who we came to be, forgiving beings. And it is through forgiveness that we can help one another heal. Forgiveness is the doorway to the heart where we can now feel love. And as we feel love, we will attract love. And in no time at all, we will attract everything we love in life.
As I healed my inner child, I remembered that my dad was rarely home. I barely knew who he was. And yet I understood that it was Dad that provided the resources for our home, food and clothing. I knew I was being loved by his actions to provide us with the things that made us feel secure as a family. But is feeling secure the same as feeling love?
Dad was also the disciplinarian. So when he was home, he was often judging or criticizing us for who he thought we should be. I was taught by my dad that being loved was attached to judgments and criticisms. Hence, I used this same pattern with my own children. I used judgment and criticism to replace love. I have since learned and understand that judgment and criticisms are not of the same essence as love. Judgment and criticisms are anger; and anger is not love.
My mom on the other hand, was a gentle, nurturing person. She did not work when we were younger, choosing instead to stay home and take care of her 5 children. Being loved by Mom was cooking dinner and serving after school snacks. Because my dad was rarely home, her time was consumed in assuring there was food on the table and clean clothes to wear. There was little time for anything else. Mom took care of us to show her love, but were we feeling love?
Being loved is an action. It is something you can put your finger on and say, Mom did this or dad did that. Feeling love is an energy. It is the true essence of who we are. There is nothing attached to it. Love just is.
How can we feel love? In order to feel love, the heart must be opened to receive. At some point in our lives, most of us have chosen to shut our heart for fear of being hurt or because we no longer trust outwardly. We use pain and torment to replace the feeling of love. Why would we do that? Because we are feeling beings, and feeling pain and torment is better than feeling nothing at all.
Closing our hearts is a form of protection. What are we protecting ourselves from? We are protecting our "self" from the negative aspect of our self.
Our bodies are storage tanks for our emotions; and in the moment we choose fear over love, our energy becomes encased in negativity from learned behaviors. This fear, dependent upon our experiences, can be transformed into anger, guilt, intolerance, anxiety, etc. Now this energy must be stored waiting for us to make a different choice; the choice to feel love. As long as we choose to attach to the negative aspect of our “self, we will attract negativity into our lives. Hence, close the heart to protect the "self" from what we attract.
Let me see if I can explain it in a simpler way:
I know when a person is angry. They don’t have to say or do anything. I can feel their anger. It is emitted outwardly as energy and I am accountable for attracting it to me. Why am I accountable? I am accountable to the same energy that I see in that person. That person becomes my mirror; what I see in them, I am being asked to change in me.
This person directs this energy towards me because “like attracts like”. When someone decides to express their anger (so they don’t self destruct), the heart opens to release it outwardly. It is energy in the form of anger being expressed through the heart, and they have attracted a person who stores this same energy within themselves to express their anger to.
Why is anger expressed through the heart? Because anger is an emotion and all emotion is expressed through the heart. The heart is our emotional chakra. Anger is not stored in the heart; it is expressed through the heart.
Why do we choose to express anger? It is in that moment of anger expressed that a person is energetically asking for help. And they have picked you to help them. It’s a game and, “tag, you’re it!” Why you? Because you store the same anger within yourself, so you now have a greater understanding of that person’s feelings and needs.
We have been taught through experiences that when someone shows anger towards us, we reciprocate with anger. This mentality will never create peace for anyone. However, it is in this moment of recognizing their anger that we have the ability to choose differently. We can make a different choice! Instead of being angry back at that person, we can now choose to feel love towards them.
It is that single moment when their heart is opened (even if it is only to emit anger) that we have an opportunity to consciously send love back to them. This is not an easy feat, for as we have all experienced, our anger body wants to play that anger game.
How do we send love back to an angry person? By opening our own heart because it is through the heart that we can express love.
And how do we open our own heart? Through forgiveness. We forgive by the simple words, “I am sorry you are angry.” And in that moment of forgiveness, their heart will heal that anger because they have felt your love. And in that very same moment, you will feel their love in return. There is nothing more beautiful than the moment we learn to share the feeling of love.
How does the heart do this? It is through the act of forgiveness that the heart has the power to transform anger back into love, which is the true essence of each being. Now that person can choose to feel love instead of anger. You have taught them differently. What a gift you have shared.
That moment of forgiveness is who we came to be, forgiving beings. And it is through forgiveness that we can help one another heal. Forgiveness is the doorway to the heart where we can now feel love. And as we feel love, we will attract love. And in no time at all, we will attract everything we love in life.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Healing Chemical Sensitivities
I am one of the blessed mothers. I was blessed with a chemically sensitive child. He was my gift; my teacher who taught me the meaning behind the sensitivities. He came to share information with me so that I could share it with you.
I believe that more and more children are showing signs of chemical sensitivities. They often look the same as ADD or ADHD and autism. So how could a parent know if the symptoms their child exhibits are nothing more than sensitivities to chemicals?
The only way to know if your child is chemically sensitivie is to clean up your act, your home and your environment. Once cleaned up, a chemically sensitive child needs help healing his physical and emotional bodies so that he has the ability to detox chemicals from the body gently and easily.
My own experiences has shown me that most parents believe they have neither the time nor energy to change their lives for their child. It is easier to give a child a drug to hide the problem. But is it? Are there long term effects to drugging our children? And can they ever be drug free if we don't get to the core of the problem?
Joshua taught me that what we put into our children's mouths is extremely important to helping them heal. Pure water is essential. Some city water systems are so toxic, a water filter may not even solve the problem. For instance, Joshua was having problems recently focussing and learning. He was feeling dizzy and shaky. He had not experienced these symptoms in years and he was concerned over the cause.
Living and working in West Hartford, he recently made a conscious decision to purchase a good water filter so he could drink water from the tap. He was feeling more and more concerned over the quality of bottled water as well as the toxins from plastic bottles.
After much discussion and testing, Joshua realized that the water filter he bought was unable to make his water pure enough for his sensitive nature. He was actually poisoning himself.
When Josh was young, we were lucky enough to have a well that gave him pure clean water. Outside our home, however, water was not safe. Water at school was not safe to drink; Josh learned to always bring water with him no matter where he went. It was the only way he was assured of hydrating his system free of toxic chemicals.
Josh's food was always inspected. Organic was always best. And food had to be free of anything artificial whether it be chemicals, preservatives or colors. White flours and white sugars became a way of the past and organic whole grains, vegetables and fruits became his mainstay. The better he ate, the happier he became, physically and emotionally.
Cow products also affected him and we turned our attention to goat, sheep, soy and rice alternatives. Cow dairy affected his ability to breath and digest. Goat and sheep helped him maintain the healthy fat levels essential to his growing body.
Cleaning products and detergents were replaced with more natural choices. And scents were avoided along with fumes.
Our world and our choices affected Joshua; the more green are home and environment, the healthier Joshua was. It was a win-win situation for our whole family.
The family support was essential to his healing. We did not have special foods for Josh. If he could not tolerate it, the rest of us went without. And with each change in our lives, we watched all of us become healthier and happier.
At 27, Joshua continues to nurture and accept himself for who he is. As he grows he continues to heal and learn more about himself. He makes a mother proud!
For more information on chemical sensitivities visit http://healingyou101-chemsens.blogspot.com/
I believe that more and more children are showing signs of chemical sensitivities. They often look the same as ADD or ADHD and autism. So how could a parent know if the symptoms their child exhibits are nothing more than sensitivities to chemicals?
The only way to know if your child is chemically sensitivie is to clean up your act, your home and your environment. Once cleaned up, a chemically sensitive child needs help healing his physical and emotional bodies so that he has the ability to detox chemicals from the body gently and easily.
My own experiences has shown me that most parents believe they have neither the time nor energy to change their lives for their child. It is easier to give a child a drug to hide the problem. But is it? Are there long term effects to drugging our children? And can they ever be drug free if we don't get to the core of the problem?
Joshua taught me that what we put into our children's mouths is extremely important to helping them heal. Pure water is essential. Some city water systems are so toxic, a water filter may not even solve the problem. For instance, Joshua was having problems recently focussing and learning. He was feeling dizzy and shaky. He had not experienced these symptoms in years and he was concerned over the cause.
Living and working in West Hartford, he recently made a conscious decision to purchase a good water filter so he could drink water from the tap. He was feeling more and more concerned over the quality of bottled water as well as the toxins from plastic bottles.
After much discussion and testing, Joshua realized that the water filter he bought was unable to make his water pure enough for his sensitive nature. He was actually poisoning himself.
When Josh was young, we were lucky enough to have a well that gave him pure clean water. Outside our home, however, water was not safe. Water at school was not safe to drink; Josh learned to always bring water with him no matter where he went. It was the only way he was assured of hydrating his system free of toxic chemicals.
Josh's food was always inspected. Organic was always best. And food had to be free of anything artificial whether it be chemicals, preservatives or colors. White flours and white sugars became a way of the past and organic whole grains, vegetables and fruits became his mainstay. The better he ate, the happier he became, physically and emotionally.
Cow products also affected him and we turned our attention to goat, sheep, soy and rice alternatives. Cow dairy affected his ability to breath and digest. Goat and sheep helped him maintain the healthy fat levels essential to his growing body.
Cleaning products and detergents were replaced with more natural choices. And scents were avoided along with fumes.
Our world and our choices affected Joshua; the more green are home and environment, the healthier Joshua was. It was a win-win situation for our whole family.
The family support was essential to his healing. We did not have special foods for Josh. If he could not tolerate it, the rest of us went without. And with each change in our lives, we watched all of us become healthier and happier.
At 27, Joshua continues to nurture and accept himself for who he is. As he grows he continues to heal and learn more about himself. He makes a mother proud!
For more information on chemical sensitivities visit http://healingyou101-chemsens.blogspot.com/
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Healing the Core of Me
Are we ever done healing? Probably not. However, we can come to a place in our lives when we realize we are becoming content with our "self". We recognize this moment because we notice that we are becoming more and more content with our lives, our choices, our experiences. We are learning to allow each moment to be exactly what it is and nothing more. This is a very powerful place; one I hope you have the opportunity to come to know.
My journey to this special place of contentment took me through many cycles and changes. There were many times during my healing layers that were painful, having to let go of old beliefs that no longer suited me so I could move on to be the me of today instead of the me of yesterday. Today is a new lifetime, one that I can create using the knowledge of my past to help guide me gently and peacefully in my present.
Most recently, a huge core layer was revealing itself to me. I could feel it coming and I tried to prepare myself for the release. Eventually, I learned that the only thing I really needed to prepare myself for anything was to learn how to let go.
Let me see if I can explain. I am a Beech contract personality, which means I learn through my 5th chakra or throat. So when I resist change or movement, the energy of my imbalance will reveal itself somewhere in this area. For months, my Beech "point" (which is located near the back of my neck) has been giving me signals or warnings. At the same time, I was ending a 4-week Beech layer, very old and very deep.
What is a Beech layer? It is me digging a little deeper into my old memory cells that are stuck deep inside to help transform them into the best of me. Each of my Beech layers has taught me a little more about allowing without judgement or control. When I become stuck between my knowledge of allowing and my pattern of controlling, I know that it is time to heal another piece of me. The two do not work well together. One of them has to give!
As resistant beings, it is not easy for us to learn to let go and let be. Change is often difficult because we resist it. I have the same fears as anyone, "who will I be without my control?" The intensity of this layer assured me that it was huge. Once begun, however, I could not go back; I had to move it forward. I knew if I could get through the pain of this layer, another aspect of my true being would reveal itself. I would be able to see more clearly, feel more clearly and love more deeply by allowing me to be me.
In order to get to this place of being me, I had to get beyond the old me that was standing in the way like a soldier guarding a post. That meant moving through years of anger, hate and resentments, mostly directed at myself. I had done a lot of healing up until this point forgiving people and circumstances from my past. Now it was my turn; and it looked like it may not be pretty.
To complicate matters, I am on this island that does not have all the tools and herbal medicines I would normally be able to get to help me through such an intense moment. My physical body was responding to the emotional blockages I had created. It too needed my attention as these two bodies are interconnected to one another.
As my emotional body was moving the energy of my past, my physical body was calling for help. This anger energy became stuck in my mucus membranes to the right of my cheekbone and settled itself in my lymph nodes. There it sat with no place to go for days causing excruciating pain. The pain was so draining I could do nothing but sleep for days and nights on end.
By day four, I knew that my inability to get my hands on herbal medicines hampered my efforts to heal. I did what anyone would do at this point, I had to find the herbal medicine woman on island. Where to begin? Eventually, I was directed to a woman called Clover Lea. After a short conversation, Clover and I became friends; and I found the strength and determination to make a shift. This is the advice Clover shared with me.
Use a hot damp cloth on the affected area to help get it move. I filled the bathtub with steaming hot water and sat myself in it holding the cloth over the affected areas on my face and neck.
Use warm water and lots of salt and snort it up through your nasal cavity. Do I have to? It does not sound like fun at all. Desperate times call for desperate measures. I did it and Ii worked. The first snort was awful, yet I knew it was working. I waited 20 minutes and did it again!
Mix pure water, fresh lemon juice, pure maple syrup and cayenne pepper and drank as much as you can. I loved it! I could feel it cleansing my system.
Gently massage the tender areas of your face and neck with small, gentle counter-clockwise movements to help the lymph nodes drain. It worked so gently and easily...
Within 2 hours, I was beginning to feel human again. I was able to eat and smile and hold a conversation without having to hold my face at the same time.
When we are this ill and in this much pain, we cannot think for ourselves. A healer needs a healer. I did not have the tools I would normally use in this type of situation, so I felt stuck; my body responded through the messages I was giving it. I could be nothing but stuck!
It took time, but I eventually realized that something had to shift; something had to change. Oh.. that would be me! I had to shift my thought patterns and allow myself to open up to new thoughts and ideas. I had to allow myself to be helped and nurtured. Thank you Clover Lea...
My journey to this special place of contentment took me through many cycles and changes. There were many times during my healing layers that were painful, having to let go of old beliefs that no longer suited me so I could move on to be the me of today instead of the me of yesterday. Today is a new lifetime, one that I can create using the knowledge of my past to help guide me gently and peacefully in my present.
Most recently, a huge core layer was revealing itself to me. I could feel it coming and I tried to prepare myself for the release. Eventually, I learned that the only thing I really needed to prepare myself for anything was to learn how to let go.
Let me see if I can explain. I am a Beech contract personality, which means I learn through my 5th chakra or throat. So when I resist change or movement, the energy of my imbalance will reveal itself somewhere in this area. For months, my Beech "point" (which is located near the back of my neck) has been giving me signals or warnings. At the same time, I was ending a 4-week Beech layer, very old and very deep.
What is a Beech layer? It is me digging a little deeper into my old memory cells that are stuck deep inside to help transform them into the best of me. Each of my Beech layers has taught me a little more about allowing without judgement or control. When I become stuck between my knowledge of allowing and my pattern of controlling, I know that it is time to heal another piece of me. The two do not work well together. One of them has to give!
As resistant beings, it is not easy for us to learn to let go and let be. Change is often difficult because we resist it. I have the same fears as anyone, "who will I be without my control?" The intensity of this layer assured me that it was huge. Once begun, however, I could not go back; I had to move it forward. I knew if I could get through the pain of this layer, another aspect of my true being would reveal itself. I would be able to see more clearly, feel more clearly and love more deeply by allowing me to be me.
In order to get to this place of being me, I had to get beyond the old me that was standing in the way like a soldier guarding a post. That meant moving through years of anger, hate and resentments, mostly directed at myself. I had done a lot of healing up until this point forgiving people and circumstances from my past. Now it was my turn; and it looked like it may not be pretty.
To complicate matters, I am on this island that does not have all the tools and herbal medicines I would normally be able to get to help me through such an intense moment. My physical body was responding to the emotional blockages I had created. It too needed my attention as these two bodies are interconnected to one another.
As my emotional body was moving the energy of my past, my physical body was calling for help. This anger energy became stuck in my mucus membranes to the right of my cheekbone and settled itself in my lymph nodes. There it sat with no place to go for days causing excruciating pain. The pain was so draining I could do nothing but sleep for days and nights on end.
By day four, I knew that my inability to get my hands on herbal medicines hampered my efforts to heal. I did what anyone would do at this point, I had to find the herbal medicine woman on island. Where to begin? Eventually, I was directed to a woman called Clover Lea. After a short conversation, Clover and I became friends; and I found the strength and determination to make a shift. This is the advice Clover shared with me.
Use a hot damp cloth on the affected area to help get it move. I filled the bathtub with steaming hot water and sat myself in it holding the cloth over the affected areas on my face and neck.
Use warm water and lots of salt and snort it up through your nasal cavity. Do I have to? It does not sound like fun at all. Desperate times call for desperate measures. I did it and Ii worked. The first snort was awful, yet I knew it was working. I waited 20 minutes and did it again!
Mix pure water, fresh lemon juice, pure maple syrup and cayenne pepper and drank as much as you can. I loved it! I could feel it cleansing my system.
Gently massage the tender areas of your face and neck with small, gentle counter-clockwise movements to help the lymph nodes drain. It worked so gently and easily...
Within 2 hours, I was beginning to feel human again. I was able to eat and smile and hold a conversation without having to hold my face at the same time.
When we are this ill and in this much pain, we cannot think for ourselves. A healer needs a healer. I did not have the tools I would normally use in this type of situation, so I felt stuck; my body responded through the messages I was giving it. I could be nothing but stuck!
It took time, but I eventually realized that something had to shift; something had to change. Oh.. that would be me! I had to shift my thought patterns and allow myself to open up to new thoughts and ideas. I had to allow myself to be helped and nurtured. Thank you Clover Lea...
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
When Opportunity Knocks!
Throughout life, we are given one opportunity at a time. In that moment when an opportunity presents itself, we are given as much time as we need to decide if we choose to accept that opportunity. What happens if we choose not to accept it? Our lives continue in the same direction that we were headed.
It is my belief that we are experiential beings. We are here to have experiences. The opportunities that present themselves afford us the ability to experience new and different aspects of who we really are. If we do not take advantage of an opportunity, it may be lost to us.
It is also my belief that we are magnetic beings. We are continuously calling forth experiences to us to help us learn and grow so we can become who we came to be. Which is not necessarily the same person we are in this moment.
For example, I worked with a young girl a few years back. Her desire for our session was to help her make a life altering decision. She had recently been on vacation in the island of St. Johns and met a young man who she felt very attracted to. Within a week's time, he invited her back to the island to live giving her possibly a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity.
What she knew about this opportunity is that she love St. Johns. She also knew that she was very attracted to this man and that the only thing in her way was the great intimidator called fear.
As I listened to her dreams, desires and fears, I could only share my own experiences and wisdom in life. As the old saying goes, "if only I knew then what I know now.." I felt confident to tell her that this opportunity may never come again. "If you choose to go and you find you don't like it, you can always come back. However, if you choose not to go, you may always wonder what could have been."
She chose to go. Four years later, she is still living on island and loving every minute. I see her when she comes home for visits. She looks happy and content with the choice she made.
I had a similar experience. My new partner recently had an opportunity to fulfill his life-long dream of buying a home on a Caribbean island. Once purchased, he asked, "You're coming with me, aren't you?" Like everyone, my fears reared their ugly little head, and every excuse imaginable came to mind as to why I could not go. Understanding the ego and how it does not want us to change and grow, I pushed my fears aside and thought, "If I'm not happy there, I can always come home." Today I am in my second year of working and playing on the island of Montserrat for the winter. And I am happy that I allowed this opportunity to manifest.
Are opportunities doorways that lead us in a direction that we have been asking to be led? And if we choose not to experience that opportunity, are we choosing to limit ourselves, returning to patterns we don't even enjoy?
As I always expressed, I want to end my life with the thought, "I'm so glad I did", instead of "I wish I had..." How do you choose to live your life?
It is my belief that we are experiential beings. We are here to have experiences. The opportunities that present themselves afford us the ability to experience new and different aspects of who we really are. If we do not take advantage of an opportunity, it may be lost to us.
It is also my belief that we are magnetic beings. We are continuously calling forth experiences to us to help us learn and grow so we can become who we came to be. Which is not necessarily the same person we are in this moment.
For example, I worked with a young girl a few years back. Her desire for our session was to help her make a life altering decision. She had recently been on vacation in the island of St. Johns and met a young man who she felt very attracted to. Within a week's time, he invited her back to the island to live giving her possibly a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity.
What she knew about this opportunity is that she love St. Johns. She also knew that she was very attracted to this man and that the only thing in her way was the great intimidator called fear.
As I listened to her dreams, desires and fears, I could only share my own experiences and wisdom in life. As the old saying goes, "if only I knew then what I know now.." I felt confident to tell her that this opportunity may never come again. "If you choose to go and you find you don't like it, you can always come back. However, if you choose not to go, you may always wonder what could have been."
She chose to go. Four years later, she is still living on island and loving every minute. I see her when she comes home for visits. She looks happy and content with the choice she made.
I had a similar experience. My new partner recently had an opportunity to fulfill his life-long dream of buying a home on a Caribbean island. Once purchased, he asked, "You're coming with me, aren't you?" Like everyone, my fears reared their ugly little head, and every excuse imaginable came to mind as to why I could not go. Understanding the ego and how it does not want us to change and grow, I pushed my fears aside and thought, "If I'm not happy there, I can always come home." Today I am in my second year of working and playing on the island of Montserrat for the winter. And I am happy that I allowed this opportunity to manifest.
Are opportunities doorways that lead us in a direction that we have been asking to be led? And if we choose not to experience that opportunity, are we choosing to limit ourselves, returning to patterns we don't even enjoy?
As I always expressed, I want to end my life with the thought, "I'm so glad I did", instead of "I wish I had..." How do you choose to live your life?
Friday, December 19, 2008
Welcome to Health!
My job is to teach you how to heal yourself by connecting you to memory cells that are stored in your body. These memory cells are unfinished energy that is waiting for completion. What are they waiting for? They are waiting for us to be truthful with our self. Truth and love are of the same essence, so when we are truthful with our self, we are loving ourself. The oppositive of truth is denial. So when we deny our self, this energy is stored as an emotion in our body waiting for us to return to truth or love. Our personal energy or emotion acts like a magnet, attracting experiences to help us heal. It is this attraction of experiences that create our patterns of behavior. These patterns teach us what we need to heal in our self. We will continue to pattern until we choose to change. My job is to help you come to that moment of recognizing exactly what it is that you need to change to move you in the direction of happiness, which only comes from truth and love.
Unlike negative emotions, love is not stored. Love is not meant to be stored because it is meant to be shared. So my question to my clients becomes, what do you choose? Do you choose to store the worst of you; or do you choose to share who you really are?
Healing is a personal experience. You can choose to give your healing decisions to someone else. But in the end, only you are accountable for your own experiences.
Early in life, I made a conscious choice to be in charge of my family’s healing practices. I have never regretted that choice.
In 1975, alternative medicines were still unacceptable as a healing modality. Much has changed since then, but my path remains the same. No one is in charge of my healing except me. In turn, I have empowered my children to understand that they too are in charge of their own healing. There are many people who have come into our lives to help and guide us, but it has never been their job to heal us.
For me, healing began in steps. My first step was to change my eating habits. My chocolate and sugar addictions did not make this step easy. But the more I eliminated white sugars and white flours from my diet, the better I felt. Headaches disappeared first. When dairy was replaced by soy and goat products, my skin improved. Eventually, I eliminated red meat which eliminated chronic stomach cramps. Each step allowed me to watch and feel myself heal.
When the children arrived, it was essential to incorporate more and more healthy habits into our lifestyle. Josh arrived chemically sensitive and dairy allergic. He became my greatest teacher. Josh showed us the path to organic and chemical free living. For that I will always be grateful.
In 1982, we opened our first health food store. We continued to learn and grow and eventually shared our knowledge with an entire community. Our greatest achievement was our third store called Sunflowers, which opened in 1995. Sunflowers was more than a health food store and café. It was an icon in the community. We taught and shared our knowledge of healing. We opened the doorway to create food that was not only healthy, but delicious as well.
Throughout this time, my practice as a nutritional kinesiologist and candida counselor grew. By 1992, I incorporated the Bach® flower essences into the practice which taught me how our emotions play a vital role in our ability to heal our physical bodies. In 1995, I was certified as a Bach® Flower Practitioner. From there my practice expanded further as a Nutritional Kinesiologist specializing in emotional healing with the help of the Bach® Flower Essences.
Certainly allopathic medicines have a place in healing. Twice we have turned to allopathic medicine to help us heal, once when Shan was diagnosed with a dislocated hip and the second time when Josh was diagnosed with a broken collar bone. Otherwise, we have been free of allopathic medicines and drugs and have consciously chosen to avoid immunizations.
I believe we are healthy because we have made different choices. Food is truly our medicine along with homeopathic remedies, herbal tinctures, vitamin supplements and flower essences. We have allowed our immune systems to flourish, and we have learned the language of pain and illness. But most important, we are not afraid to be responsible for our own healing choices.
My collection of Healing You 101 blogs are designed to help you take the first step in healing yourself. We welcome you to learn with us as we experience life as it was meant to be – joyful and healthy.
Linda
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